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Friday, June 30, 2006
I HATE TODAY! ITs SUCKS! Thursday, June 29, 2006 I AM NOT ALRIGHT!!!! SOMETHING IS DAMN WRONG IN ME! I AM SCARED; REAL SCARED DON'T WISH TO GO BACK TO THE PAST... Today is a very lame day just reached Tampines then Yunru msg tell me Mr Cheo never come. What the hell? But i still went to meet Jiahui and Huijuan, the three of us went to eat first. After eating we decided to go Causeway Point, first time taking bus 969 and it was a forty five minutes journey. To me i still like taking bus cause it simply make me forget abt all those unhappy memories. After forty five minutes we finally reached Causeway POint, we went to shop around before going to the arcade hohohoh0 so long didn't went to arcade play already i was damn exciting and acting like a small kid man hahax. After playing we went to Mac and had our lunch before heading back to Pasir Ris CC, anyway meeting Jerry for basketball. So many ppl cannot go finally i still gt him, then in the end we play two vs one haha lose like hell and so tiring but i still love it. Now holiday starting already i am going to play like nobody business... LIst of thing to do during the holiday... 1. shopping 2. basketball 3. chalet & bbq 4. meeting my bestfrenz 5. accompany my dear dear Wednesday, June 28, 2006 i am so tired really really very tired. Tuesday, June 27, 2006 To my boy, Happy 3th month Anniversary! thou we seem to be unhappy but i really do love you. If you ask what i really wish for? I wish we can be together forever n everr Wish our story will nv has an ending... Love you always = ) From your dar dar Monday, June 26, 2006 I AM SO BORED!!! MISS HIM SO MUCH!!! SIANZZZZZZZ . . . . . . Sunday, June 25, 2006 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MOMMY! I ALWAYS LOVE YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MOMMY! I ALWAYS LOVE YOU! Saturday, June 24, 2006 life s abt enjoying urself. no matter wat happen whether u pass a day happily or nt e day s stil pass. so try 2 live life happily says: AutoMessage: dear sry. didnt noe it mean so much to u. dear i dun mean to hurt u. i jus wanting to play n haf fun. but think my fun went over-board. hurting u in the process of it. dear i realli jus waan haf fun onli. i oso can haf onli 1 dear, lao po n gf onli. u r my onli 1 lao po, dear n gf. dear it jus a game. dun be so wat hao ma? Errr... maybe i really too what ba. But imagine i am the one calling any guys dear; laogong; hubby and lastly those three word " il0ve you", you can take it ma? It a game! What the hell! Do you know how scared i am? You want to play then play lor caused i don't want to care anymore. wo hao lei hao lei le... Crying again n again because you, you think i like it! Who don't wish to have happiness? That all i asking for, is it too much? Friday, June 23, 2006 I am crying f0r you AGAIN! I really don't know what to do because you simply mean too much too me. To you i might be nothing but to me, you are my life. I simply can't live without you; without you my life won't be colourless and i won't wondering without my soul. Yesterday althought i am tired i still played maple, wanted to level up just for you but it might be a wrong decision. I shouldnt have signed in then i won't be crying NOW. I simply break down when i saw both of ur conversations and this time round i really cannot take it anymore. I can't lie to myself anymore. In my life i can only have one lao gong; dear and hubby unlike you, you can have alots. Last time as ur sister i can don't care but now I DO CARE cause i am now your so called "dear". At ur hse i already act as nothing happened but it happened again and i really cannot take it anymore. I am too afraid and i simply feel so insecure. Can you please tell me what to do? I really do not know? Just wish i am dead then i wouldn't shed a tears for you again. Today went to school trying to be happy but in the end i cried in school, in front of Rosanne and my friends. Can you imagined? For the first time I simply can't control myself and broken down totally. Anyway sorry to scared you guys and thanks fot accomapany me. After school, on the way to meet him. I am so scared and nervous. Finally reached and both of us are so weird, kept on smsing with ks and i am trying hard not to cry but when i see him i remembered those conversations and in the end i cried again. I really hope to be with you but i am too scared, really too scared. Tell me what to do hao mah? i really don't know what u want? wo zhen de zhen de hen hai pa. zhen de. Lionel and kokseng thx for accompany me. Kokseng, promise you nt to cry but i cried again... Thanks for everything you had done for me; you are forever my sister. Jiahui, Rosanne, jasmine, meiyi and huijuan thx to you guys too. Sorry if i scared you all. Thursday, June 22, 2006 Today lesson was so lame i simply went to school just for two hours lesson and we can go home. Isn't it lame? Anyway today meet my friends 11am at Tampines. We bought something to eat before going to school. haha as usual we were late again... After school, took bus 31 with them then later i went off to find my boy. Today is the longer day with him and maybe i shouldnt had dat kind of thinking. As long as we can be together i don't mind. I gonna to cherish the time when we are together cause i really scared that our story is coming to an ending soon. Althought you always said that i am the one that will leave you but i dont think so. I really feel very insecure... Hate it when i am on my way home cause the feeling of loneliness simply made me think. Anyway reached home bathed already started to blog. That my day going to call my boy le. nitex How long can my story last? Can it last foreverr till the day i die? You are gonna be the last person i love Wanna be with you foreverr... Wednesday, June 21, 2006 Oooh i am damn tired and my whole body feel so weak. After doing the five station, we had 15mins rest before the 2.4 run. I hate it but still i f0rce myself to finish the run. Out of 103 people my ranking is 31 hahax = ) I been contented to get a pass for my run. After Nafa test, huijuan, jasmine, weixiong, meiyi and me went to Tampines Mall food court and had our dinner. My mommy tag along too but after eating we went off first hahax... I felt so tired man but still i simply miss my boy. Reached home , bathed chatted a while with him den i went to sleep. At ard three plus i woke up, i simply cannot recall what had happened. It seem like something had happened but i simply just can't remember. Saw my handphone 20 miss calls and 5 msgs. 3 msgs were from my boy and after reading it what he said abt my boy is correct, he will be the damn old him, tot awhile before calling him back. Confused Nobody like the feeling of loneliness i feel so insecure... Sunday, June 18, 2006 Today whole day blogging and editting my blog until now still haven done my homework. Anyway just now went to Elias Mall Mac for dinner. Then when we reached home, mommy suddenly qns me. I just act blur... Arghh~ But how she knew, if suspect still can understand but she said someone saw then told her. Then i think should be my ah yi or else i really don't know who tell her. Or maybe my brother, caused that time i cried then my brother asked me what happened then i also don't know why i tell him also as he only nine yr old. Anyway Really don't know what to do!!! Joel: Hey! Everything alright? miie: i am fine J0el: ur nick? miie: feel abit down n confuse i am alright de don worry i am strong J0el: share with me lahz... strong but still need support de miie: i don wan any support i wan to be strong no need to depend on anyone... J0el: no man is an island lahz aiyoz u ahz.. subborn little girl miie: bleah don care J0el: dun give up on urself k wat other says does not determind ur future... its wat u say and believe.. No matter what i still got friends who does care for me. Thanks for ur encouragment, i am feeling better. Friends foreverr... So boring and confused... Early m0rning received a msg from him, woke me up and i simply can't get back to sleep. Really don't know how to reply him, since these few days so moody better stay away from him therefore even he called me i also didn't answered. Now he send me this msg you think i really believe you. I really don't know how to believe you already cause you always say one thing and do another thing then now you tell me you still gt feeling. You think i idiot ar or am i a fool to you. I really treat you as my sister and very grateful to you caused whenever i am down you are always there for me, listening to me and accompany me. Sometime i really regret, anyway now i simply hope you still my best sister and bestfriend ever, that all i asking for. Saturday, June 17, 2006 Morning while waiting for yunru to come, i saw denglin, cheeyong and weiliang. There told me abt yichun' perf0rmance and asked me whether i am going. Ermmmm not sure... Meet dear? Dance? or his performance? Don't know which one to go.Anyway after dance met my sister, bought lunch home. After lunch ard two plus, i slpt all the way until six plus. Then went to Downtown East had dinner. Then s0mething happened, i so rude sia to Eddie' mom dead meat. I really lose my mind didn't ask properly then i said 'you called me then ask me hu i looking for?'' After she put down the phone then i realised oh shit, this time i am dead. Arghhhhh gone insane!!! Friday, June 16, 2006 Today after school went home but quite sian so accompany them to Tampines and stay until two plus before going home. Then later meeting dear dear hahax so rushed took a cab down caused he told me movie start at 4pm then in the end 4.30 den start diaoz. Watched 'X-men 3 - The last Stand' t0gether with Max and his girlfriend hohoho. The show not too bad quite nice and because i am watching with my dear dear. Anyway after the movie went to eat dinner so we walked to 201 there, who know in the end max is the only one that is eating. After that we walked to another coffee shop and get smth to drink and chit chat lor. Mood started to change maybe i just too tired. We sat there chit chat talking all the crapping stuffs and i wondering actually i not that lame after all caused they more lame then me hohoho. Mom called kana scolded think she know ba. When it is ard 9pm we walked back to Century Square arcade, plyed till 9 plus then went home. Walked back to dear hse there and took bus cause can accompany him also heehee but in the end i still took a cab home. Tired? Sad? Just confused... Thursday, June 15, 2006 Oh no! My BFD gone case already. Caused of the stupid bus then i was late for fifteen mins and that mean i only left with forty five mins to finish my paper. I was so panic lor then in the end i cant remember anth arghhh. Think i not going to get A for it man. Fu*k Anyway at the end of lesson when to played bball with jasmine, huijuan and weixiong. The weather was so hot yet we still played and today my attire was so stew. At ard three plus then we all decided to go home and i saw jason went home with him. After that he came to my hse to see the what stupid vide0 so lame lor laughed until stomachache. Then when he went home i bathed already jiu fall aslp. too tired ma!!! Wednesday, June 14, 2006 d0nnoe how you feel but i am simply too weird. Something is not right but yet i can't explain what has actually gones wrong. Maybe something went wrong within mee. tml is actually BFD CA already yet i still awake d0ing what? Thinking and recalling all those memories. Suddenly feel like crying... Arghhh~ why am i acting so weird. Simply can't cheer up... i am a br0ken d0ll with a br0ken heart... my heart is bruised and sore a br0ken heart; a br0ken promise Monday, June 12, 2006 I am sick and tired of my life. Getting piss off with this kind of farking life. Tired of crying... tired of worry when the day will come... tired of missing euu everyday... tired of thinking when i be two times... tired of all the crap that euu said... maybe i might get tired of loving you... Even when the day comes my heart will simply just be dead. As it will been locked up. Sometime i simply just wonder why am i doing all these things to myself when i know euu are not the one that can give me happiness and also not the one that can protect me but the one that will hurt me again and again. Because of you i hurt myself mentally and physically. How you expect me to tell my mom? Tell her i actually like a guy that can't make me happy but always made me cry instead. Today was a bad day for me, early in the morning received a msg from him and this msg simply spoiled my day. When i received it i simply reply him and off my phone. I actually tot of going home cause i know i going break down soon and how am i going to spent my whole day in school... with a fake smile and my stupid lame joke trying to act happy? I just tired of that. I felt like crying at the very moment but i kept ren and ren but in the end i still drop my tears on the bus but i didnt dare to face charlotte so i kept on rubbing my eyes until the contact drop out a few times. Bus full of so many ppl yet i still shed my tears for you why? why? WHY? I am really tired. Really very very tired. Donnoe what to do... Donnoe what i want? What actually do you want from me? me?? my tears?? or just someone to satisfy you? Maybe one day i be dump by euu if i can't satisfy you right? hahax =) Regret hahax maybe... anyway i am just a wan ao to euu mah. stupid foolish is all i can said. Should just end my life then there be no more worries and i will not cry for you again things are no longer the same and i simply too tired to love euu... Saturday, June 10, 2006 Today got danced but sad sad charlotte didn't go again. Never mind at least got yunru but i still hope you can go. Aiya forget it. Anyway after that went to buy lunch for my brother before going home. Reached at ard 1pm, chatted with kenneth in msn then he asked us whether want to go out walk walk or watch movie then i call charlotte ask her wanna go anot. We met him at Somerset MRT then we walked to Cineleisure. Hohoho charlotte wanna watch 'The Omen' so in the end we chosen to watch that but in the end i regreted cause i scared ma. Anyway after that we went to Takashimaya dere and had our dinner. Then we went strolling and walked walked and took neoprint heehee = X before going in. Oh no the movie was damn farking scary but the end suck. Not that nice after all, it was almost ten so lotte and me went home. Reached home ard 11 plus so tired *yawn* but still gt chatted with dear dear =). Thursday, June 08, 2006 What a bad day? It been rainning but still we (huijuan, weixiong, jasmine and meiyi) still went to play basketball. Although it was just drizzing but the rain just gt heavy n heavy den in the end we were played in the rain and the floor was damn slippery. We had lots of fun and i keep falling down hahax Then at 4 o'clock charlotte came to look for me so sweet = ) and she pei me played bball and waited for me oOrhh so sweet love you *muackiee* And at the finally game in order to defend the ball i hurt my finger and now it swollen like a pig finger arghhh pain pain... After that at ard 8 plus we took bus 31 to Tampines and had our dinner before heading home. orhhhx i am injured all over okay time to sleep... nitex Wednesday, June 07, 2006 Today after school went to dear dear hse orhhh miss him so much therefore no matter how tired i am i gonna see him. After school took bus 31 to Tampines with aseline, lotte and jiahui after that i walked to his hse. Stayed until 6 plus then i met Stephanie at Tampines Control station. We went to check out the hp price caused she wantedt to change phones AGAIN. Orhhh rich girl heehee =p After that we went to Tampines Mall and had our dinner so damn hungry. Then we took the wrong bus to 201 therefore in the end we walked to 201. Stupid still can't find the shop then in the end we decided to come back tml so we went home. I simply so tired then tml still got BFD test arghhh how am i going to study??? Reached home bathed already then chatted with dear dear on the phone. So tired lor then i like keep on talk rubbish... shi ma? Then don't know chat until what time i just went to sleep. zZZZZZ Monday, June 05, 2006 Today lesson ended at 5pm. After lesson went to play basketball with jasmine, huijuan and weisi0ng. The floor was wet and i feel weird today. Anyway we played till 7pm den we went to Tampines Mall food court and had our dinner. Oh no i saw him arghhh don wanna give him my no de but what can i do. That time i change no. already didn`t tell him le nw saw him again so suay. Dao mei arhhhh!!!! Nvm after that huijuan and me went to piercing. I simply pierced back the same place but huijuan pierce the way *ouch* so pain.... Anyway maybe i will go pierce also hahax =X After that we all went home. *Yawnzzz* So tired!!! I felt that my life is in a messy with no sense of direction. I am really lost and i feel so miserable. |
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