Yes what i only have my handphone and keys. Yesterday reached home ard 12am bathed, grabbed my phone and keys and went to meet baby. I really wanna see him even when i know i am not ready to tell him. Stayed over at baby house and woke up ard noon, we had my favourite maggi mee (cooked by my baby *muackss*) for lunch then we went to meet Max and Connie at White Sand before going back to my house and get money. Who knows my clever mommy lock the new gate and i did not have the key so we had our dinner at West Plaza before we went home. At first we planned to go out but it rain so baby accompany me at my house.

Wanna tell you i just hope you are right there for me.

Baby nights

So what today is friday and weekend is here buti am still feeling damn low. Tummy is giving me this weird weird feeling for the past few days and i had no idea what is going on with me. Feeling kinda scared, not knowing what i should do. Yes today is month end wordload is damn high till you got no time to go toilet and the very next moment you know it is time to go home but still i got to stay and work overtime to finish my closing for the day. Worked till almost 8pm went off with Andrew (Mr.Dino), no idea where to go so we decided to walk to the MRT station while thinking our destination. Finally decided to go E-hub, we had KFC for dinner (guess what i had 3pcs chicken meal wow~ yupp dat because i`m not in the mood) and we went to arcade and played. The cube box game was so popular so we did not had a chance to play, i just played my basketball and shooting game. =) When we walked out we were looking at the Game Cafe and know what James (my ex years ago) came and talked to me arghh kinda shocked till know what to say, he is currently working there. After math we went to play swing and cut some cut on my hand just because i used my hand to brush off the sand on my bag after played.

It almost twelve midnight but he still haven msg or call me. I just hope you are beside me when i needed someone. Anyway walked home with Andrew caused he insist of sending me home. After i reached home bathed called me and when over to the night with him. Sorry baby i know you don like to see me cry but i really donno what i should do.

Work these few days not that great, facing lots of problems simply hope can go back study soon. Did not manage to left at six cause i am all alone when Kairen went off on time as he had school. So i tried to rush thru myself and sorry Rebecca slightly late took shuttle bust to MRT and MRT down to Raffles Place caused it is located at Ocean Tower 27th floor. Changed and ready for the yoga lesson Oh Man i going to break my bone, kinda difflicult lah for a beginner like me. Think i really gt to go a few time before i can bend here and there like a rubber band. Lesson ended bathed and too tired to go anyway so took MRT home and went to White Sand NTUC bought some stuff and home to prepared my food for tml lunch. Chat with baby awhile before i went sleep.

Today work suck. Busy for the whole day and when i came back from reception kana scolding and few hours of nagging from Missy Cindy. Just wish can end work soon and relax.

Almost 7pm then end work went home alone, had my dinner and bathed waiting for Eddie come fetch me. Then we had car ride with all his friends, we went to Changi Village and almost going to OCH. Then back to the chalet stayed till almost 3am then we went home.

Pigggies we slept till 2pm then we woke up, Eddie cooked my favourite Maggi Mee (thou is just maggi mee but i simply just love it), after math we walked to Tampines buy ingredient to cook for our dinner. I am cooking dinner for him but donno what happened to me no mood to cook maybe falling sick and so tired. After dinner we bathed and took Bus 3 to Downtown, we had a small quarrelled yuppp old self scared so i msged him. I am sorry. Take a ride from Yan Ming back home. Took a shower and slept before we slept we chit chat on the bed =) , both of us are so tired.

Once we woke up we had a big quarrelled. After math we went out to NTUC and bought dinner home to cook. We had marcoroni soup for dinner, damn full can say both of us are bloated haha = D. Watched tv in the living room till i almost fall asleep so went back to room slept till nine plus then took cab home.

Argh tml is monday again have to work.

I am so tired whole morning hangover cause ytd dead drunk. Almost wanna went home with Edwin`s fren but that because i am drunk la and i don even know what i am doing already except i the feeling is still so clear. Work work work busy busy busy.

Met darling for lunch for Mac lunch we had our favourite Mac Spicy and after work i went home together with my darling. Had my Dinner and not long Eddie came over my hse to company me and left at ard 11pm.

Woke up at one plus almost two cabbed home and bought chicken rice for my lunch with Eddie. Bathed and had our lunch before we went over to Century Square and meet Ah Ling and Edwin. Ah Ling, Edwin and Eddie were like keep talking and going outside and smoke only me keep shopping shoppin and shopping. But i did not get anything la mainly just window shopping. Ard 5plus went over to his hse for dinner then we cabbed down to Downtown East Kbox. Sing sing sing and i break down. I know i been endure my feeling finally i break down. Left ard 12plus cabbed home and slept.

Royston went to pick darling from her house and Eddie & me then they went off @ Jazz Pub. Darling & me continue to Bedok and fetched my fren - Troy (knew him at phuture).

Reached PHUTURE ok la not that long queue, when we went in its only 10pm did not want to get high now haha = P So we went over to ZOUK, they had some kind of event going on so not much peoples there yet, and we found a quiet place sat down and chit chat tille 11 plus then we went back to PHUTURE. Start ordering & drinking before the one-for-one over weeeee we had 1 Redbull Vodka, 2 shots *new* but forgotten the name what mango de, 1 Flaming Lamborgini, 2 Green Apple Vodkas & 1 Orange Vodka but we are not even high. We dance and dance just me & her dance like nobody business. I hope we can club more understand DARLING. Everything ended at 4am took cab back to Tampines Mac had our breadfast, kept sms you but never reply a single sms.

Home sweet home.

I MISS YOU!

Weekend is here again. Enjoy Enjoy Enjoy

Finished work slightly late today, sorry darling made waited for me. We went over to Marina Food Court and had Saba fish for dinner then we went to shop ard before we head down to Jazz. Ling was dere with Edwin and after awhile Ah Chua also came. Mr is there with some girls having this painful feeling but what to do. When to smoke, forcing myself to drink and played with all those uncles to cover up the pain. Dead drunk everyone left took cab down to his house, sat at the staircase for awhile before i left and back home.

It`s hurt...

Woke up at 7 plus to my surprised i was in Eddie`s house. Stupid hang over decided on MC today. Hang over was so unbearable did not wish to care abt anth slept @ his house and he went to school. Did not want to think abt what he dad and mom would say cause no matter how good i am they still dislike me. He came back at 9 plus, continued to sleep till 11 plus then i keep insist of going home. So he went home with me bathed and took cab down to see doctor (but doctor went out for lunch) so went to arcade he wanna see his fren expected no change. After math i went to see the doctor already, walked to Central finally had a hair cut, late lunch at the hawker had my favourite fish soup and we cabbed back to his house and get his car. Drove down to Mandai donno wat camp to fetch Ah Chua. While waiting for Ah Chua, we both break down, kept shouting in the car. Ah Chua came, i cried all the way Changi. They did not manage to book the chalet cause closed, sent Ah Chua back and i went over his house. Slept till 10pm ate and down to Jazz with Shuning why reason is simple and clear.

Normal day, woke up early drag my foot to work.

Did not have any mood at all, had lunch together with my darling - michelle.

Back to reception duty spent the whole hour to thinking,

hope the clock faster strike six.

Mr Dino send me home really miss him alot so sms him.

After dinner, bathed took a cab down to Tampines,

and sold my sony erission w910i for 100 bucks

Wanna see him and give him a surprise but.....

i did know i will miss you so much.